Nicole Kidman admits Tom Cruise divorce ruined Oscars win as she had sorry night

09 January 2024 , 13:08

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Nicole Kidman says she was struggling when she won her Oscar

Nicole Kidman has opened up about how she felt when she won her Oscar in 2003 after her divorce from Tom Cruise.

The actress was recognised for her role as Virginia Woolf in The Hours just after her divorce from Tom, 61, was finalised. The pair had been married for 11 years and were known as one of Hollywood's golden couples.

Nicole, 56, said: "I was struggling with things in my personal life, yet my professional life was going so well. That's what happens, right?" She then went on to explain how the moment made her realise that she had to love again.

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Nicole won her Oscar in 2003

She told author Dave Karger in his new book 50 Oscar Nights, as per People: "I went home and ended up ordering takeout and eating it on the floor of the Beverly Hills Hotel. I sat on the floor of the hotel eating French fries and a burger with my family and went to bed. That's when it hit me. I went, I need to find my love; I need a love in my life. Because this is supposed to be when you go, 'This is ours."'

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She continued: "I went to bed alone; I was in bed before midnight. If I ever won again, I'm telling you, I'd be out for 24 hours." As she accepted the award Nicole was seen breaking down in tears briefly as she said: "Russell Crowe said don't cry when you get up there and now I'm crying."

Nicole then admitted that she is "not a big party girl," so was going to "skip the Vanity Fair party," as others told her she had to go and "walk through the party carrying your Academy Award." She said she felt it would be "like gloating, and it doesn't feel humble," but she was reassured "That's what you do."'

The actress felt damaged by the recent divorce

Nicole won the award for her role as Virginia Woolf

Nicole detailed the moment saying: "I literally walked in, carried it around, was completely overwhelmed, emotional, shaking, and I didn't enjoy it. I was almost apologetic, which is so stupid. I wish I could have enjoyed it more."

Nicole and Tom got married in 1990 before they split in 2001 rocking fans globally. Tom and Nicole share two adoptive children - daughter Isabella, 31, and son Connor, 28. Two years after Nicole's Oscar win she started dating country music star Keith Urban.

Nicole and Keith got married in 2006 and have two daughters Sunday Rose, 14, and Faith Margaret, 12. They celebrated their 17th wedding anniversary last year.

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