15 August 2023 , 21:42
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Rylan Clark has recalled how his mother feared he was having a stroke at one point during the aftermath of his split from his ex-husband two years ago.
In his new book, released last year, the BBC Radio 2 presenter details how the breakdown of his marriage to former Big Brother contestant Dan Neal, 43, impacted not just his mental health, but his physical health too - admitting he suffered two heart failures amid the fall-out from the split.
Rylan and Dan tied the knot in 2015 but announced their separation in July 2021 - with the TV presenter going on to reveal in his latest memoir how their marriage was rocked by his historic cheating admissions. Rylan has been open and candid about how the subsquent divorce impacted his mental health.
Speaking to musician Matt Willis on his podcast, On The Mend, Rylan recently shared: "My marriage ended and I didn’t know it would end and I felt like everything was my fault and I felt like, right, but this is salvageable, I can sort this out… I’m the fixer, that’s what I always do, and all of a sudden I couldn’t fix something and it’s confusing me because I was like, but that’s not right."
Rylan Clark announced the end of his marriage just over two years ago (S Meddle/ITV/REX/Shutterstock)He continued: "I can’t remember what made me disappear, basically, from the person I knew, but the next thing I knew, I could not see, hear, eat, breathe, sleep, I couldn’t do anything." At one point, Rylan says his weight dropped to nine stone and said that he could not string a sentence together.
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"It was like I’d had a stroke and my mum thought I was having a stroke," he continued. "I just got into this dark hole where I thought I was crazy because nothing was making sense to me and partly that was because of upset and heartbreak, but at the same time, the situation, with what I was being told, I thought I was going mad, I thought I was making things up."
He went on to add: "I’m so strong. I’m so, so strong, but I was so broken, to the point where I physically couldn’t dress, I couldn’t eat, I couldn’t do none of these things. I tried to end it a few times, unsuccessfully, gratefully now, but I just remember going to sleep at night, after doing nothing all day, living at my mum’s, frightened to leave the house, didn’t want anyone to see me."
Reflecting on the situation, Rylan told Busted singer Matt that he can look back now and be grateful for what he went through, declaring: "I would never let myself get like that again."
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